It’s been a long time; a long time since I’ve
written any words in my blog.
Time has passed, full of worry about my mother and
weariness from her care. Time passed
regardless of whether I wrote or whether she grew worse or well. The months rolled on; time and circumstance changed both our lives.
Mum deals with her new fragility. She struggles for strength, relishing every
day and every accomplishment, pushing her energy forward to healing. Back in her own home, she manages with help
from family and a hired caregiver, a good friend. She learns to cope with the changes in her
body.
I am recovering my own energy and relishing the
seasonal changes, the bright places in each day. My focus on writing, particularly poetry,
has returned, and though rusty, is responding to re-writes, polish and hard
work.
The grey and brown days of spring give way to
splotches of fresh green, flashes of colour—the goldfinches at the feeders, the
dime-sized yellow crocus, the larger purple ones, the hint of red and gold on a
blackbird’s wing.
I welcome these signs of colour, renewed vigor and fresh
life. It’s been a challenging winter. I am
grateful for the lessons of love and the wisdom hard won, as I move into a transformed
thankfulness for each new day.
Spring and yellow and poetry and purple fill the
sweet breezes. I am ready.
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